The first thing I do when I get to work, after I sign the health screening and clock in, I plug my iPod into my speaker and jam as I do my morning chores. It’s sort of a mental prep for the day to come.
As I was setting up my til and doing some paperwork I saw a courtesy clerk walk by my building then walk back to the main store, I didn’t think anything of it. I figured she was gathering the early morning carts. A few minutes later I saw the same girl pushing a heavy cart full of ice. 10lb bags of ice, there were probably 20 bags. I was going to go outside and tell her to let the guys do that heavy work but just as I though that the song “I am Woman” by the late Helen Reddy started playing and I thought…This girl is strong and as capable as any of the guys. Then I thought…How would I feel if I was told…Let a guy do that.
”You can bend but never break me ‘Cause it only serves to make me More determined to achieve my final goal And I come back even stronger Not a novice any longer ‘Cause you’ve deepened the conviction in my soul”
There are many different types of phobias. I have a few
arachnophobia – The fear of spiders.
Coulrophobia – the fear of clowns.
Orthopterophobia – the fear of crickets and grasshoppers (among other orthoptera insects.)
I am deathly afraid of all these things. I didn’t even know there was a cricket phobia until a friend and I were talking about our shared fear of them and I looked it up.
One thing you will never see on a list of phobias is “Homophobia” That’s because there is no such thing as homophobia. This word has been giving this meaning as a way for people to justify their hate. Their bigotry and their close mindedness.
A phobia as something you are in fear of. Something that causes you anxiety and panic. People are not afraid of gays. Gay people don’t cause others anxiety or panic. Or maybe they do. I suppose if you don’t understand something it will instill a little fear but how about learning and educating oneself.
I really don’t know whyt I wrote this whole thing except that 2 things struck me in the last episode of “Say I Do”. In the show there were only 2 same sex weddings. I noticed in the first one that Thai, the fashion designer, just about fell apart at the wedding. I didn’t think much of it because he, Gabe and Jeremiah always get a little emotional at the weddings. In the last episode, the second same sex wedding, Skyler was out and proud and living his best gay self but Randy was still very much closeted. He’d come out to his family, which wasn’t received well, but he was unwilling to live outside the closet in public for fear of what people would think of him. It was all very sad and in the end he had fully embraced his gay self and come to terms with the fact that not everyone will be accepting of him and Skyler. How did that happen? It’s a long story, watch the episode “Me and my guy” to find out. Anyway, in the process Thai told his story, which had me bawling, I’m not even kidding. He wants so badly to marry his partner of 14 years but doesn’t feel that he can because of his parents prejudice. They are traditional Vietnamese people. It was all so sad. I actually messaged Thai on Instagram and told him how his story affected me. He is the sweetest man.
This is Thai and Kevin, Thai is the one holding the dog.
Do you tend to cover up your failings or admit your mistakes?
I am the kind of person who will admit my mistakes. If I know I’ve made one. One of the worst things is making a mistake and not knowing about it, hurting someone and finding out about it later. As human beings we don’t always know when we’ve done something wrong.
Recently I made a huge mistake at work that almost caused someone their job. I owned up to it and even asked my supervisor to discipline me. It wasn’t something I did intentionally and I made sure the other person involved knew that and knew how sorry I was that the situation happened.
It’s always best to admit when you’ve done something wrong and if it’s hurt someone else, apologize and try to make it right.
Today’s NaBloPoMo blog topic is “How good are you at telling a lie?” Wow..Do I want to get into this? Oh why not.
I think there are times in everyone’s life where we have to tell little white lies. Either to be kind and not hurt someone’s feelings or maybe to get out of an uncomfortable situation or for some other reason. Is this ok? Well that’s up to you. I’m not going to say yes or no because we all do it.
Now for real lies. There was a time in my life when I was a great big liar. I lied about everything. I wasn’t ashamed. I didn’t think anything was wrong with it and I slept just fine at night thank you very much. Then my lies started to come out and started to hurt people. Then guilt started. Then I started to realize the reason I didn’t like going to church…guilt and conviction. That was where I needed to be and I knew it. So what did I do? I forced myself to start going back to church. I put myself into therapy and through that I dealt with issues from my teen years that had never been dealt with that had been the root of all my evil. It took me a long time to get better. I got over my “evil” ways but I still wasn’t the person I should have been. That took a lot longer. It wasn’t until I was in my 30’s that I finally gave my life over to Christ and said “please fix me” Well he helped me fix myself and I am a completely different person.
So in answer to the question..No I am no longer good at telling lies. I couldn’t tell a lie to save my life.